As the first week of 2011 comes to a close, I find myself in not such a good way. I spent all but 2 days home sick with no root cause to my troubles. I have my suspicions: 1) stress, 2) grief, 3) bronchitis, 4) ulcer, 5) heart, 6) anemia, 7) hiatal hernia, 8) weight, 9) approaching menopause, 10) sedentary lifestyle, 11) bad diet, 12) financial stress....
I need to make some serious changes, and I need to make them now. The problem: changes cost money, I have less than the amount of money I need to meet basic monthly budget needs. By not making these changes that I can't afford financially, my budget is getting worse because of medical charges that need to be met. It's a vicious cycle that needs to be broken and I need to figure out how very quickly.
It's always been in my nature to take care of everything and everyone. Not a bad quality to have if only I remembered to include myself in that. Doesn't take a brain surgeon to figure out that there is a good place to start. But how, with so much crap having been piled on, where do I start to climb my way out?
Realign my priorities
It doesn't cost anything, and it will give me a starting point. To do this, I can't make rash 'public opinion' decisions. Popular rhetoric is that I should be number one on the priority list. I have two kids that I am supporting and trying to raise to become responsible, generous, happy adults. To do that, I need to make some sacrifices. What sacrifices am I willing to make? This internal discussion needs to go hand in hand with my priorities, and I have to reconcile with what is acceptable to ME, and not public opinion, as to how to create this codependent hierarchy.
Next week: The List
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